Forced Forgiveness

[donutsweeper]

Title: Forced Forgiveness
Pairing/Rating/Warning: NCIS fandom, Gibbs/DiNozzo,  spoilers for "Hiatus", rated R
Word Count: 200
Summary:  DiNozzo is going to forgive Gibbs, no matter what.  Gibbs will make sure of that.
Author's Note: Written for the slashthedrabble challenge, forgiven

I admit it.  I screwed up.  I quit, probably in the gruffest, most painful way possible.  I said “You’ll do,” handed him my badge and gun and left him standing there, looking like I’d just punched him in the gut.

I should have said goodbye.  I should have said thank you.  I should have told him he was a good agent, that he was my friend, my lover and given him the respect and trust he always gave me.

But I didn’t.

I’m back now, but he doesn’t look at me way that he used to.  His eyes are cold and distant, his tone clipped and careful.  He acts like there was never anything between us but the job.  Every interaction is terribly professional now.  And I can’t find the words to make things right.

But I was never one for words. 

So I fall back to what I am good at.  Actions.  I’ll make him understand why I did what I did.  And why he needs to forgive me.  I look down at him; naked and tied to the bed, the sleeping pill I slipped him starting to wear off.  It’ll take some work, but he’ll be mine again.

Comments

[chatona.livejournal.com]

Yeah. 's sad, but true.

Heh, I love that scene. As a matter of fact, I love that whole episode. Tony's adorable in it - and I love that he knows how to dance.

[donutsweeper.livejournal.com]

although- there's a lot in that episode that made me go "huh?" The bartender in Gitmo made ALL these movie references that Tony didn't get, and it didn't seem like he was faking not knowing about them- so the writers hadn't added Tony's love for movies/tv as a part of his character yet.

There's a line somewhere that refers back to the iguana scene.. something about Kate seeing Tony naked and he says no, he was wearing a chair at the time. :)

[chatona.livejournal.com]

Heh, I honestly didn't notice that - which isn't all that weird, considering that pop culture references, especially when it comes to movies, usually go right over my head unless someone tells me they're there.

Yeah, I remember that, too, but I don't know in which episode they say that *wanders off to check wikiquote*

[donutsweeper.livejournal.com]

I only noticed it this time around, probably the 3rd or 4th time I saw the episode, and probably only because I was wearing my fanfic writer's hat

[chatona.livejournal.com]

Did you know Gibbs' dad was a fighter pilot? That's the stuff I notice when watching NCIS attentively *grins*

[donutsweeper.livejournal.com]

I didn't remember that. I guess I tend to focus solely on Tony for that sort of thing

[chatona.livejournal.com]

It's very, very sublte. He tells Ducky that his dad had a pin-up girl painted over his P-51. P-51 being a fighter plane thingie.

I only remember this information 'cause I really want to write a story in which Tony is a fighter pilot *bounces happily* Inspired by this icon, by the way :D

[donutsweeper.livejournal.com]

ooh, there was an AU out there where Tony was a WWII fighter pilot- not well done, but *shrug*

Tony in that uniform? With the shades and all? SEXY

[chatona.livejournal.com]

yeah, it was by thetenthmuse as well, I think. the WWII fighter pilot story. mine's going to be an au to the series, though, not AT or anything. gibbs will still be an ncis agent.

The shades and the attitude and.. the idea kinda kills me dead. I want to write that :D

[donutsweeper.livejournal.com]

was it? I couldn't remember.

I like the idea of it being set in the present better. You have quite the long list of NCIS stories to write, don't you?

[chatona.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I'm pretty sure it was :D

I do, yeah. I made a list of those that I really want to write (as opposed to those that I just sort of want to write), here (http://chatona.livejournal.com/73803.html) :D

[donutsweeper.livejournal.com]

oh COOL. I should do that. I tend to flitter about randomly and only write stuff that occurs to me at the moment

[chatona.livejournal.com]

Lately, I rarely write stuff that occurs to me at the moment - mostly, 'cause the bunnies that attack me are just too long to be written in one go and 'cause I never seem to be anywhere near a computer when the bunnies do attack. So I just sort of mull them around in my head a lot and those that stay for a long time get written in the end. Survival of the fittest, right here in my head. The poor bunnies.

[donutsweeper.livejournal.com]

yeah- I know what you mean- some ideas are great, but will take weeks to write. Or I could just go for the easy snippet that might be able to bang out in a day or two

[chatona.livejournal.com]

I rarely have bunnies that I could write in under 1.000 words and seeing how I'm a terribly slow writer, 1.000 words take me more than a day or two *whines*

[donutsweeper.livejournal.com]

that's why I like snippets- snapshots of a moment. 300-400 words and done!

[chatona.livejournal.com]

I don't seem to be able to write those most of the time. I used to be able to write drabbles, now I end up writing things between 1.000 and 5.000 words more often than not. Which is okay. I always wanted to be able to write long stories (10.000 and up), but drabbles are great, too. I sort of miss that. Should try it again sometime..

I can write snippets in German, but technically, I can't really write in German. It's sort of embarassing that I write less well in my native language than in English *headdesk*

[donutsweeper.livejournal.com]

the mere fact you're bilingual amazes and impresses me!

I'm all over the place as a writer. drabbles. snippets, ficlets, big fics.. everything

[chatona.livejournal.com]

By now, my English is better than my German. Which I really do find sort of embarassing.. But I like English better, can't help it. Just wish my French was as good *pouts*

I want to be able to do that as well! :D

[donutsweeper.livejournal.com]

You speak three languages? *dies*

Sometimes I hate being a schizophrenic writer- I feel all over the place and like people don't know what they're going to get when they read my stuff

[chatona.livejournal.com]

Uh... I speak three languages well enough to read in the respective language, two languages well enough to write in the respective language and... four languages well enough to go on a holiday in the respective country.

Heh, I guess the grass is always greener elsewhere :D

[donutsweeper.livejournal.com]

wow. that's a lot of languages. English, German, French and what?

[chatona.livejournal.com]

Italian. I'm not particularly good at it (because frankly, my teacher sucked) and I'm not studying it anymore, but I could probably survive in Italy on my own. If I had a dictionary.

I used to know bits and pieces of Japanese, too, but I forgot all of those and it was never much to start with in the first place, and I had six years of Latin in school, but that's not exactly a language spoken in the streets..

[donutsweeper.livejournal.com]

Wow- that's a lot of languages! I know a few phrases in Yiddish and could probably muddle through the most basic of spanish, but that's pretty much it

[chatona.livejournal.com]

I want to be able to speak ten languages fluently before I die :D So far, I'm up to two, though my French is getting better.